how i went from why am i here to how did i get here

how i went from why am i here to how did i get here: -

it was like 4 gazillion years ago and i was doing my best to not get caught up in the grind but then one day i'm hangin' with this silly valley geek set - it was all weird and stuff, i mean what's a wannabee counter-culture dude from waspville doing in the mother of all high tech suburbs? - but then i spied this xtra cute kinda back to the earth blondie fresh outa Santa Cruz and I says 'hey this is way cosmic, what kina sh*t was i doing this morning anyway" - and so i think what the f#$% 'nd jump on - next thing i know this same blonde chic forces a beer down me and says she's gotta a couch that's callin' my name and hers and then when i come down off that trip i am hangin out in suburbia city, blondie's bringin' home the salmon, and the music my parents used to listen to is invading my music collection - i take inventory only to find i'm like stable, with a day-shift g-man job, playing a richman's game on the weekends, drinking rose in the back yard, spying a career in the rear-view mirror and my Santa Cruz baby is still with me - like man, wasn't it just a few days ago that eddie and i were wondering what those Beatles were doing with their hair?

this is something i wrote a few years back – i was inspired by something my nephew matt (west coast matt – got 2 nephews named matt) wrote about a girl – so I decided to write about my girl, kris - it was my attempt to sort of capture the style he used while fusing the style from my youth (beat) - it's short but i like it and i like that the inspiration was from matt – he's thoughtful and creative - he likes to be cool (my term) and have to say he mostly is, at least more so than i was or am...

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Love, a Many-Splendored Thing

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